Received some bbm thing a few days ago, some chain thing titled 'whats' your heart?' and there was this whole shitload of options but one stand out the most, it was your heart's a stone.
I was thinking then (i was kind of in a sucky mood), i wished my heart was like stone. I mean all you forsake is a little happiness, other then that, you'll be devoid of emotions, any jealousy, sadness, anger anything, everything will be gone, it cannot be felt. Which is kind of cool and kind of comforting. Whats a better way to numb all the wounds in life? If you're heart is of stone, you wont even get wounded in the first place, if your heart is of stone, your brain and heart wont have to battle for a higher consideration in your judgement. You'll be more impartial etc. This few weeks have been horrible and thanks to Jesseca for being there for me to rant. Sometimes when people you actually care about turn into strangers, it hurts and whenever you decided it's enough, your heart makes you want to stay. It's so shitty, it seems like i hadn't updated my blog but i typed gazillion of posts which i deleted cos it just seems too personal to release in this blog. Especially when some of my thoughts and feelings have to do with people who i interact with frequently. Sigh.
Anyways, what i've got to say is,
i know what you have been doing behind my back. Today is the last, i made this promise to myself and i really have to keep it. Thank god work is gonna occupy my time. I need to recycle some people in my life.
