happy 2 years 10 months baby dear ( 7/june/2010)
More piccas will be up by today if Facebook and Blogger allows it -.- Trying to upload Ameline and my pictures up now. EVERY DAMN WEBSITE IS DOWN, Twitter, Facebook, Blogger? Cyber war now?
Lol. I'm totally alright already. I think my fever making me have mood swings. Sucks to be me. Gonna shop at Vivi listed stores now. Byee :)
Hi, this blog is so dead. I can't be bothered to update neither do i feel like updating it. What is a blog for? To store my thoughts my feelings about thing. But the true thing is, it's on the net. How can i express my true feelings here. Everything i say here must be hidden or i cover up lies and excuses just to stop people from knowing that im jotting about them. No point. Plus my blog is full of pictures and i just realized i always seem to be happy on my blog so people always have this misconception that im like, forever not emo -.-. Okay whatever. I'll blog when i want to, cause alot of things has happened and i have no idea who is real and who is fake anymore and whether i could trust you and you and both of you and work is shit and life is shit and i need more money and i have to save and...
i'm having a motherfucking fever right now.
Goodnight _|_
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How to say this without being to obvious. Um
Peanut butter and jelly is a perfect match. They compliment each other to the final degree. Butter shouldn't come in to spoil their otherwise perfect arrangement. Butter with Jelly or Butter with Peanut butter will cause each to taste like shit, so butter should just disappear and not spoil things again. yup, that should be it.
Received some bbm thing a few days ago, some chain thing titled 'whats' your heart?' and there was this whole shitload of options but one stand out the most, it was your heart's a stone.
I was thinking then (i was kind of in a sucky mood), i wished my heart was like stone. I mean all you forsake is a little happiness, other then that, you'll be devoid of emotions, any jealousy, sadness, anger anything, everything will be gone, it cannot be felt. Which is kind of cool and kind of comforting. Whats a better way to numb all the wounds in life? If you're heart is of stone, you wont even get wounded in the first place, if your heart is of stone, your brain and heart wont have to battle for a higher consideration in your judgement. You'll be more impartial etc. This few weeks have been horrible and thanks to Jesseca for being there for me to rant. Sometimes when people you actually care about turn into strangers, it hurts and whenever you decided it's enough, your heart makes you want to stay. It's so shitty, it seems like i hadn't updated my blog but i typed gazillion of posts which i deleted cos it just seems too personal to release in this blog. Especially when some of my thoughts and feelings have to do with people who i interact with frequently. Sigh.
Anyways, what i've got to say is,
i know what you have been doing behind my back. Today is the last, i made this promise to myself and i really have to keep it. Thank god work is gonna occupy my time. I need to recycle some people in my life.
Hadn't blogged in such a long time, have been wasting my life at home watching movies and texting away. So blehdy unconstructive, gah. Went for a job interview with Prissy yesterday and we both got the job! Starting work next week :)
Went out with Natty darling sometime last week, had 18chefs then some bitching session after that. Camwhored tons but all would be on Facebooook. :) It's loading so slowly! Hate facebook sometimes, have this laggy problem for the past 3 days i tried uploading pictures. Had a jolly good time with Nat, reminiscing about the past and bitching hahahaahaha. We should do this again, nat luv !
Love you sweetheartzxcc <3!
