I've been reflecting really on myself after the last meeting with Charlene. Reflecting on my decisions and about whether i've matured and stuff from my sec2 days. I'm currently loving my friends now, i think the world of them. Also, they're all very close to my mum, which i guess is a good thing? (: . Charlene asked me whether can i deem them as my true friends? I answered yes. Why? Cause these are my friends who will scold me. They dont just let me do whatever i want. Like what everyone say, true friends are people who will tell you the truth, no matter whether it hurts you anot, cause ultimately one day they know you'll be thankful. They put you in front of themselves, even if they get hurt or get hated, they just want you to be happy. They just want you to remember them in the long run, not as a friend but as someone who made a great difference in your life.
Then Charlene talked about boyfriends, how do i know that Eric is THE ONE. I think that, he is the one cause we had the worst of fights, been through the worst of obstacles, we are still as close as ever. Even though we fight everyday over random stuff we still love each other deep down. Even though the words i love you seem meaningless as we say them to each other everyday, but our actions prove we love each other. Is not the words that count. Action speaks louder then words. By the way he respects his family and my family and most importantly, my mother and my friends shows that he respects me for who i am. I never regret dating him 1 year and a half ago. Maybe i did, sometimes, say i do in a fit of anger
s, but i know i'm just lying to make myself feel better.
I never regretted dating Eric, i never regretted knowing Priscilla, Natasha, Sherri, Ferlin, Nana, Vincent, Jeremy, Felix, Zaclynn, Sokkan, Yongshen, and Elise sheeppp. I love you guys and i want you all to know you mean the world to me
Thanks Natasha. I love you godsister! Thanks for caring, thanks for cheering me up with your sadistic jokes, thanks for being my bubble tea kaki and the best bitching partner i ever had. Like what they say from mean girls and i quote " you crack gretchen Natasha, you know yo crack the lock on Regina's Vanessa's whole dirty history. :D
Thanks Priscilla for your advice. Thanks for helping me voice out my problems. Thanks for caring and Thanks to be the first few to instant message me whenever i change my pm to a sad one.Thanks Sherri for being my shopping kaki, and also being one of the best sharing partners ever. You're not shy to express your true feelings so i get the real hard advice not a one that you build up to make me happy.Thanks Ferlin for being there for me. Even though we're not as close, but i miss you and would like to see more of you. Beep me soon :D * inserts lots of love!
Thanks Nana, for being my L4D kaki, for being my bestbabe, for bitching with me and helping me throughout ! Even though you're younger then me but you're wiser then any 14/15/16 year old. Thanks for your constuctive advice and thanks for being the one who accompany me during nights when i feel like i could shoot myself cause im bored.
Thanks Vincent, for being the world-class sympathiser and the world-class personal hairdresser for me *nudge nudge. Thanks for hearing me kaopeh about Eric and helping me talk to him. Lol, thanks for being my guy...sister...i mean guyBROTHER. lol
Thanks to both Felix and Zaclynn, even though we aren't close and you're Eric friend but you both take care of me and i really appreciate that you treat me as one of the kind and not treating me as Eric's girlfriend. Thanks alot. xoxo.
Thanks JEREMY. i know you'll be fucking surprised. Hahah, for caring about me so much, for treating me like your real blood sister. I'll be calling you korkor soon. Lol. Thanks for hearing me out, thanks for giving me advice, thanks for sending me the lupe fiasco song and thanks for being so nice to me. ilyKORKOR. HAHA.Thanks to Sokkan for being a sharing partner, for always being there for me, for treating me so well. Even though we're not close, it's sweet knowing that someone is there thinking of how to solve my problems ( ie, your blog link). Thanks for being the sweetest thing.Thanks Yongshen, for helping me talk to Eric when me and him fight. For never taking sides, for accompanying me, for helping me train my liqour, for meeting me late night to go drink cause im bored. For sharing your problems with me. Thanks :D.Thanks Elise for giving me no-nonsense advice. For helping me to grow up and stop being a childish kid. Thanks for comforting me and not judging me. Thanks for being a person to confide in when im insecure, thanks man sheep :D
& also i would like to thank the rest of Eric's friends, esp Rainbow and Willy and Cyndi and Janice for comforting me and the night of the chalet. Even though you guys dont know me well and Janice and Rainbow seems very scary at first but you are all nice people and thanks for being so nice to me. Thanks for helping me plan the chalet too and thanks for hearing me out about the Gastard thing( Rainbow and Janice and Willy) and thanks to Willy and Cyndi for entertaining me that day @ Erwin's house.
& Thanks mummy for being my pillar of support for the past few months. I know it's been really hard on you and i want you to know that i appreciate you. Thanks for spending so much on me and spending even more on my 16th birthday. I love you so much. Thanks for being there for me. Throughout everything. You dont have to try to be both a dad and a mum cause me and Aloy has already accepted it and we esp I love you, as a mother and the best mother a girl could ever have. Million kisses and hugs :D. Thanks for helping me to make my dream come true. :D
Thanks Charlene for being the best social worker a girl can have and thanks for being a great friend.(: . You actually made me think about my life leh, be honored man!
I've really thought through( thought really hard) and all this come from my heart so i hope all of you be very touched and happy and continue to love me :D . (ps: and donate more money to my shopping fund) lol, kidding. Love you all.
Ps: eff lor, i tear when i write this post leh. nehneh.
