Sometimes i feel as if im alone.
Real lonely, as if there's nobody there.
No boyfriend, no family no friends, no sisters.
No, no one.

And every glimmer of hope seems to disappear into that small black circle then engulfs everything.
And every pain, sickness and everything i felt now seems to be 1000x stronger.
I feel damn stressed up about studies
I feel damn stressed up about friends
I feel damn stressed up about relationships.

And the biggest point? I don't know why.

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Went out shopping with Priscilla, Shernis and Vincent today. Had great fun with them. Went over to Suntec as i wanted to dye my hair pink but decided not to as i've lack of time. Went shopping instead. Bought outfits to wear for clubbing tomorrow which is later tonight and new year clothes. Bought many stuff and it was awfully heavy to carry on the way home. Also, i've got the awfully worse headache which makes me feel like taking a damn gun and shoot myself. Saw Sili and her friend at Fareast too. Went walk walk together. Went home around 9, did my LKY homework then messaged Andre and Baby. I'm like lifeless now, seriously. Maybe tomorrow club will make me remember my senses abit.

A few days ago, met Benji and had long chats over alcohol and chips at the playground under my house, reminscing the past of our lifes, from when i was 13 years old, when he was 13 years old. Sigh. Talked alot, and bitched alot too. Benje is my bestest brother <3